Before Departure to UK

16 June 2012 @11.15am, on Saturday in Sheffield. I've been delay my blog about a couple of weeks already. Having a feel to give up blogging, but, I'm still log in and keep typing for no reason and automatically.

Just that, don't have much words to describe my feeling either excited or expected or coming UK to completed my task.

Is my first time to travel UK,

is my first time to leave home, 

is my first time to leave all my family, 

is my first time to live with other than family. 

Hope this would be my happy memories in the future.
and trying my best to be good.

Before this, I've few people that wanna thanks to.
My love, my aunts, my cousins and my family.

Only 3 or 4 months is staying in UK, 

is a shorter time, but when you really go through day by day,
it's D.I.F.F.E.R.E.N.T. 

Sunday, 03/06/2012
Visited my lovely cousins.
Had a dinner @Watami Malaysia (Japanese Casual Restaurant) in Paradigm.

If you like Japaneses food remember this, because their food was really N.I.C.E.
The marks that they gained from was their super polite customers' services. 

For example, when you needed to ordered something, they'd squatted down and make order for you :) 

Monday, 04/06/2012

Starting to prepared my stuffs. 

T.T
My mum bought it since I born and kept it for 22 years.

But, careless me, just broke it T.T

Tuesday, 05/06/2012

my present from my love before the day I leave

My ISIC

My facial products that brought to UK,

Oops, not all is mine.
I helping one of my friend to bring too
XD!

Oh, my Japanese Cuisine

Wednesday, 06/06/2012

"Last day" stay in my Malaysia room.

Thanks my 5th aunts purposely come to visit me :)

容不下●灰色地带

黑色、白色、灰色...
这样的灰色地带，不清不楚，不黑也不白...
就像漂流在迷流的河中...
抓不到浮木...
没立足点...

这个时代人心在变，

连朋友的定义也在变，

我的世界，容不下-灰色地带（目前）

我不懂，

如果你真的看不顺眼，

为何虚情假意，表里不一？

何为虚伪？

现金(今)社会太现实，不断地发展造就了人们的拜金主义，虚荣主义和欲望。

每个人最终利益权只会选择自己，所以表现起来就会是虚伪，因为做的和想的不一定会一样！

我不懂，

如果你真的是投其所好，

为何不直接拍手叫好，非得前这说不，后这则做？

真真假假，假假真真，很难分得清。

身边每个情义视重，唯独时常挂嘴边的那，却行说不一，

视而气怒，却也无奈。

回忆过去，中学生涯，

一群“志投道和”反之处理事情起来，相比起如今“社会大学”来的具备人情味。

但，人事已非从前，相比如今，只能摇头叹气。

我不懂，

如果你们真的是不欢不瞒，

为何不表明心态，非得背后囊囊细语，书写嫌怨，搬弄是非？

我不懂，

如果你真的是不懂且无具经验，

为何还多加意见，试问想得到的是何等注意？

我不懂，

如果你们真的是不认同本人言，

为何久违的日子过去，却看到你们行其言。

我不懂，

如果你真的是做错了，

为何还要推卸责任？

庆幸身边保留一般值得交，所谓形同一体的知己。

送上一句话给自己，与在看的各位“听其言而观其行”。

(P/S: may I trouble you minutes to click the survey beside? Thank you, appreciated)

Happy Work Life

Took by myself

I don't really like people to promote me when I don't need any help, so do I don't like to be a promoter, but, being here is way difference. People who come in, you'll feel some difference, I mean, they won't be too mean.

Think about natural, the people who love nature is difference than normal stress people, aren't they? At least I think that way. 

Took by myself

There's a member called, Happy Yen, click here, well, I've never thought I could learn things from a customer on that few minutes or hours. 

At least I don't need to face any gossip, politic or conflict here. I will call it G.P.C in my blog which easier for me (you can also spell it as Geh Poh Chi). I'm not saying I don't at all.  I know there is always G.P.C out there everywhere, every time, every moment. Well, I do always hate fakers. 

took by myself

I think I've been go too far away, come back. Alright, there's nothing to do with G.P.C. He involves in human development, hey, I love it. I'm curious about human, not physically but mentally. 

Well, messy mind here as don't really know how should I get involve of my main point. Uh.. Alright, like this. 

What he had spoke, all his words, sentences were sneaking around hide, store in my head, couldn't get out of it. Good though. 

What he had told me, was a very useful information for the entire of my life. Now, I don't comment, but I'm written down, how about you think about it?

"I teach people how to be happy" with a smile.

"Nature is my class room" with a smile.

"If something happen, I'll be unhappy if I done, since then, I rather not doing. Because if I do, I'll not happy, but if I don't, he/she'll not happy. Why not just making he/she to unhappy." with LOL.

"But, looking people unhappy, I'll not happy, too." replied by me.

"Well, you can either stand or sit for longer time. But, why not you trying to half stand and sit on the floor, in Chinese we call it 扎马. Can you stand it for more than 2 hours? No, we can't and SUFFER MORE. We even need to adjust either stand or sit after longer period." "You can choose to open one eye and close one eye."

 "There's always a C.H.O.I.C.E, Anything happen, there's N.O right or wrong, thing happen for some reason. You can choose in either way ", "It's complicated yet simple." LOL LOL LOL. 

The quote of the day

Well, I decide to delay my work life post as previously think to post it at first. It will be short post today. 

First thing first, I dunno this Leng Yein, a model, until the dog abuse, you know the adorable poodle named, shusi. I'm not gonna to recall, pay attention and discuss about the focking jerk who abuse that shusi, so skip it. Maybe you can click here and find out. That is the only moment I know here.

Her story? Anything about her? I just know nothing about her until she is one of my fb friends. As people know me they know why. I read her thoughts, she is Aries (LIKE MAX!), and she is just the person I like the most, strong, dare, especially she have her own style, not following other people, 敢爱敢恨，敢怒敢言，敢说敢做，敢做敢当!!! Unpretentious (hate faker), she even post her plastic surgery photo. See!

Now, come back to the topic. This wall photo post is awesome. Do not underestimate this short post, inside got lots can be quotes though. See, all my friends.......... it could be more and more..

Spotted? the quote of mine from her..

人生短短几十年。开心也这样过，不开心也这样过。有钱用多，没钱用少。这道理，很简单。何必埋怨？知足，感恩，就好。。。


BTW, today is a good start of my day, thanks my siblings, and I sure never let you'll down! I'm going to use her as my example.

The Comparison Trap

Here come my thought post again which is purely my own thoughts. 

Did you find it? Human beings living on Earth will inevitably and ultimately to compare. Let's say comparison can be a driving force, but, I personally think it's not worth feeling lost and sad or even win and happy.

Have you noticed that you never compare yourself to people who seem to aspire to less than you do. And always choose those people who are the top performance, most popular as your yardstick for success?

Hmm, let's say, like if someone seems to be more... articulate than you, you can either respond in this 2 ways:

1. Can become upset and depressed by telling yourself that you should be as articulate as that person? or

2. Recognized and accept the fact that there are probably a lot people out there who are more articulate than him under certain circumstances, and that's just OKAY!

Playing the comparison game is a dead end street and it is the world's most stupid thing. 

So, please don't come and ask me what's my results if you feeling compare. Don't ask me my salary if you want to compare, Don't ask me what's my boyfriend's salary, job, what branded things I had, what's position, who is prettier, rich, etc............... if you feel comparing! 

(Well, I'm just straightforward, I don't mean it, this is me)

I hate the comparison, and also hate to be compared. 

Are you as good as your friends? bro? sis? Or how about try to be 'normal' person are? 

Can you only be good if you're better than someone else? I mean when we use other as our yardstick, we aren't taking into consideration our own limitation or talents.

Don't tell me compare can be progress, it might be. You'll just be addicted into it and forget the real, exactly why you're here doing this. If you win, it could be you're smarter, luckier and hardworking. But, don't forget it also could be people is just lazier. 

I mean by doing this probably will cause you to lose some other qualities by which you can judge your own worth, like honesty, friendliness, caring nature and animals and so forth. 

And really, What I thought is that, 

People don't value you for how much you're like someone else.

People do Value you for the ways you're being you.


And Why Not? Just enjoying the moment with "real friends"?

22022012

Once I wake up today, my mum told me today is a good day.

22022012
But, I not feeling that well, I wish to, I wish it's good day for me.
It's like I got thing to do yet, dunno where should it be started or have to start or not.
Actually, I found my path, I know what I should do now. But, just jam me, something else.

Maybe I know why, I feel abnormal. I mean you leave me too long time.
I know it's just one month trip, but please, come back to me.
You know that it's so hard to find the pictures of me & you in order to temporary making me happy, you know the reason right? 

Uh Uh.. Save the saliva and do it.

So, other than you will be making me happy, still, looking at their pictures will make me feel happy, too. 

Jian Lun Dai Lou 22nd Birthday
@Kota Damansara
And again, Tacit Wear without planning
ngek ngek

Last day of 2011

Yo~~ Hi blog long time no see.
啊啊，心想以华文完成2011最后一天生活的点滴，却又不经意很自然地以英文来开头，习惯性作祟，幸好及时开窍，还来得急。

让我有这么冲动想在这一天，临写部落各的原因很奇怪，也很值得珍惜。

没出去倒数吗？没有！

为什么？因为考试即将来临。

重点是，考试。隐隐约约的记忆中，好像是两年的最后一天（2010 & 2011）都是在家度过，因为考试。

这样的日子，人生中会有几次啊？是很气，可是，是很值得回忆。

距离2012， 还有两个差不多两个小时。。。你，在2011年，做了什么？

2011年，有喜，有悲，就让我保留悲的好了。

终结呢，

很开心， 虽说，还没考完试。但，已经正式不再往学院去上课，不需在课室听讲师说教的必要了。所以，2011年，也算最后一年“念书”。当然还是需要念书啦，毕竟，还不是毕业生。

很开心，一起西哈互帮互忙，互信互学，互玩互笑，互三八的学院同学，给了我种种的回忆与挑战。这种回忆永记于心。

很开心，和一般中学同学，关系越来越棒。老实话，我真的很珍惜你们。谁是你们？心知吧。以前在一起的日子，就算迷糊，也不会忘记曾经的经历。我为大家的幸福感到快乐。希望你，你，你。。。。。。过得越来越好。不好，我会伤心。

很开心，和黄健祥，感情越来越好。就将多~~~~~~~~~

很开心，家里多了个宝宝，亲爱的家人，所有亲爱的亲戚，身体都健康。就快要见他们了，开心~~~

好，接下来呢，照片，也一样纯粹是想记录生活而已， 故事从那里停子就从那里开始。所以，不多张，去facebook那里找吧~

Regen surprise birthday

Ming wai birthday


Class Cameron Highland trip




Girlfriends


TARC MEMORIES PART 1

final year project

car on tow at highway

Dan and osk birthday 

ZX and Eng Birthday

Mismatch Christmas Party

HAPPY NEW YEAR in advanced~~

Collecting thoughts

Outside, the air still feels cool, warm like I'm still stick with my comfy bed, and everything else that's holidays to me, but I know the truth: Holidays is long gone. Today, I got a ride to school in the early morning to attend my 8 o'clock class, can't believe the school really here, even I'm the first one who reach the lecture hall, LOL. 

First thing first, this post will be more on thoughts then sharing my life. (P/S: So, it's boring, lame, if not interested better stop a footstep here) I'll skip the step of sharing to different platforms. As I actually thinking to password protected this post, but why I still wanna to hide, since I become myself all the time. I barely share my thoughts somehow I don't feel people will understand what I have been experienced. Because I'm kind of weak in socialistic, hmm~ my communication weakness is one of the strong prove.

Except my family, my loved, my high school's sisters (maybe bros) that used to help me, encourage, support, teach, take care and stay with me no matter how busy they're which they all understand me well my both good or bad part like real sisters and lead me to more optimistic, I do super-duper appreciate yet I'm glad to have them along for accompany in my life. 

A friend in need is a friend indeed

I've no better way to show my thankful, I wish all of'them to be happy and grab the most happiness that ever can because they deserve to. Yea, I do always wish I've a real eldest sister can take care of me. Well, I don't, but have all the cousin sisters that are blood connected, whether at my mum side or dad side, they take care of me and so do am I. Just that, they live so far away from me, Penang, Subang.... Arg! 

Well, I appreciated what I have, its more than enough. Not wish to spoil the relationship, no any evil thinking in between us. They all deserve The Best. 

You might be curious why suddenly become the way so sensibility, ha, because Mr.Wong is right about one thing today. He say: Karen, are you kind of person that always can't get a satisfaction. Ya, I admit. I have many requirements, expectations.... Because I'm attachment, I'm stubborn, I'm persistent, preserving.... 我很执著。haha~  Of course, it has the good and bad as well, that's me, Imma not shame on it. C'mon, A leopard can not change his spots. I will be improved myself from any mistake, so, do tell, but don't ever come and change me.

Back to topic, since I'm weak in socialistic, you know, Life is so much jolly when you can just become yourself. I'm still not ready to face the freaking creepy sociable things, bla bla bla~ (Person who know me will understand what I mean.) In school life, I just want to be myself, so, I rather to be silent for a moment to avoid any awkward that will ever hurt me again than freaking fake myself out, strong self-protected mindset, huh? Yea! Well ya, I'm straight which might be directly offend somebody, but judge me in front then. At least, once I decided then definitely take the action. Just, don't piss me off first, *Laugh*. The End.